309. Always, But Never

I’ve always wanted to be somebody,

But I never wanted to be set in the limelight.

I’ve always wanted others to read my poetry,

But I can never seem to find when it’s the right time. 

I’ve always wanted to work hard and impress others,

But I’ve never really understood how to.

I’ve always been the type to constantly wonder,

But now I only wonder about why I do.

I’ve always wanted to try my best, 

But I sometimes feel it’s never enough.

I sometimes feel like people don’t care,

That I’m not giving them enough love.

I’ve always placed my heart on my sleeve,

but the sleeves keep on getting shorter,

when someone else decides it’s their time to leave.

My heart can’t take this kind of pain any longer.

I wonder why things happen the way they do,

I wonder if they were always meant to…

I wonder if I was truly meant to be here,

And if anyone would miss me… if I just disappeared. 

And maybe, just maybe I will.